I have found religion to be helpful in finding some sense of community but that can’t really be forced and you must be wise in selecting a religious community. Though for the most part I find myself in a similar situation to your SO except I don’t have a partner either. I am looking for hobby based groups but most are only found by word of mouth. I have tried several internet searches.

How can there be a whole community around an 8 year old meme from a dead youtube channel?

Sounds like dbt would help.

Yeah I never cared for the format either.

I think the issue is that the current definition of rape is inherently sexist.

Sexual Battery*

Oh I thought that was assumed.

The all feed is all federated instances. If you want a different one you would have to find one federated to different instances. And if it was tailored, it wouldn’t be “all” now would it.

Take it as a happy accident.

The building looks almost transparent.

Spoken like you have never been on reddit.

You can default on medical debt.

It’s pretty clear your friends care deeply about you. And negativity bias is a real thing. Trying out gratitude journaling might help you see the good things in your life. If you want to be closer to your friends, do something about it. Reach out more. Invite them over. Let them know how much you value them.

I’ve come to the conclusion that the only people who would want to date me would be people who are equally as much of a fucking mess as me. Not sure how to find them but what else is new.

Thank you for such in-depth answers. I know for certain that I am nowhere near the depths of my depression. When I was at my worst I was numbing all of my emotions to avoid the anxiety and feeling of failure. And while recently my mood has been more unstable, that is directly linked to a change of meds for a physical health issue. My life is by no means drama free and it hasn’t made me catatonic yet. Anxious, sure, but I am not constantly dwelling on it. I certainly could be at a better quality of life, it would require drastic changes to my living situation which while are doable eventually I think. Honestly, I think anxiety might be more of a barrier for me than depression. Not that depression doesn’t make everything harder, but is more of a sign that I am not living a fulfilling life.

I mean it sounds like you are describing someone who is selfish that demands much and returns little of those around them. I don’t believe I do that. But you are saying I will if I don’t figure out my self esteem issues before hand?

Thank you, I am saving this, it is a good quote.

Maybe not but they are highly comorbid. And having depression get in the way of a lot of my goal took a toll on my self esteem.

At this point I don’t think there will ever be a cure given how long I have lived with it. Part of me wants to date so that there is something humanly normal about my life, another part stays up late at night wishing there was someone to hug me when Im sad and someone to share my music, memes, and fan theories with, and part is just amorous I think. I’m not experienced enough with dating to even know how to avoid codependence. I haven’t been in such a relationship but I also would know what to look for other than not have low self esteem.

I wouldn’t know. It would probably take me months to figure out if the sort of people that attend these clubs would be dateable. I am no expert on hobby clubs but the little experience I have had with them is they tend to be small and hardcore. Since I am not hardcore about anything either due to personality or depression, it is difficult to gage if I have a place there.