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I recommend against searching for people to ‘make amends’ for a few reasons.

They might not remember it. Your attempt could trigger forgotten old memories, causing them stress you don’t intend.

They might not forgive you. Are you prepared to handle that? You make a gesture of good faith and they reject it, how to you react? That’s a rhetorical question, don’t actually answer it because no one knows exactly how they will react, it’s just something to consider and reflect on.

Trying to make amends would be you, trying to seek resolution to a conflict created by you, hoping for someone else to forgive you. Notice a pattern there? It would be you making things about you, which might be seen as a selfish humble brag or some may think it is part of a scam of some kind and trust you less.

It might turn out that the people you seek out have turned as bad as you once were, or perhaps they always were and you never noticed. Your efforts would be wasted on them.

That brings me to my suggestion. Move forward. Learn from your past mistakes to prepare for a better tomorrow. Do good things now, try to find ways to do it without getting any attention for it.

Don’t make your good deeds a badge to wear because then it loses its significance. An anonymous kind stranger is better than a politician donating to a fake charity, if that makes sense.

If you happen to run into someone you once bullied, apologize sincerely. If they seem down on their luck, ask if you can help in any way but don’t put pressure on them. You wouldn’t want them to feel ashamed for receiving help, right?

From now on, try to be a positive force. Do what you can to ensure the future has less people like you once were and more people like how you hope to be.

There is a bug that is open right now which sounds like it might be one you were experiencing or possibly explains part of the issues.

https://bugs.kde.org/show_bug.cgi?id=501073

Like the web browsing might have been from middle clicking, which causes a lengthy hang and resuming from suspend and powerdevil are a prime suspect for it.

The login wait might be an issue I vaguely recall about the splash screen and that disabling it removed the startup hang.

I’ve been exclusively using Manjaro KDE since September of 2021 and the linked issue I started getting a couple months ago and it’s gotten bad enough to make me want to start hopping again.

Like day-duhh, day-tuhh, day-tahh, d8-ahh, d8-uhh, d@-uhh or d@-ahh?

To clarify, that’s ether, eyethur, kneethur, nyetheir, kneethur ether, respectively.

I use either either and neither neither nor neither either.

If you can offer advice without her becoming defensive or taking offense to it, suggest exercising more and taking supplements for B and D vitamins. An alternative way to suggest it, would be to ask if she wants to join you for a walk outside. It would be a great time to talk about life in general as well. Of course, that’s only a good suggestion if it is convenient and possible, not if you live separately and/or over a long distance.

Exercise, even something as simple as casually walking for 30 minutes a day, has been shown to improve symptoms for a huge variety of mental and physical health problems. Her issues might be coming from something physical health related that hasn’t been caught yet or possibly even discovered yet. A doctor might attribute symptoms to a mental disorder when it could actually be caused by a treatable physical malady, like rickets or scurvy.

A chronic issue many people face today, especially younger people, is a lack of sunlight. The body uses sunlight to create vitamin D. With winter making it difficult to get outdoors, it can be easy for some to become deficient. The sunlight can’t come from a window for vitamin D, the glass blocks the necessary UVB rays.

Having been diagnosed with many disorders in my life (OCD, ADHD {actually ADD but that’s not a thing anymore}, Bipolar type III, Schizoaffective, antisocial personality disorder and GAD to name a few. I do not believe I have all of those but ADHD and OCD seem accurate enough to me), I can say that walking outside has improved my mental health and overall health tremendously. I’m less angry, have more energy and can focus on things slightly longer than I could before.

Reducing my screen time I think also helps possibly. I have a theory about screens, that since they don’t produce the full spectrum of light that the sun does, spending too much time staring at a screen increases the chance of vitamin deficiencies and might cause some of the mental disorders that aren’t fully understood (so like, most of them in my opinion) or others that haven’t been defined.

I’ve read that it is recommended to walk outdoors, preferably away from motor vehicle traffic, for about 3 hours a week for the body to create an appropriate amount of vitamin D. I can’t quote a source on that, I simply recall reading it and I believe it is true. It might not be true. On that note, this obviously isn’t a cure and I am not a doctor or a professional of any kind. I simply think it might help and I truly hope it does.

How are you delivering it? That’s a lot of pennies.

I’m asking the wrong question, does it have to be the same 1 million dollars you gave me? Can it be something which is valued (by you) at 1 million dollars?

How does inflation effect this? A million dollars today might not be worth a million dollars in a year.

If I buried a million dollars worth pennies in my backyard, well actually, I probably wouldn’t be done digging the hole after a year. Also, I don’t actually have a backyard. If I did have a yard and it already had a large pit dug, which could contain a million bucks worth of pennies, after a year would I need to haul them out for you or does your OP magic also allow for easy transportation?

Is your OP magic for sale? Must be less than 1 million dollars or I can’t afford it.

How did you list your hardware like that? Where it shows the key specifications for each part as bullet points, not the bullet points though, if that makes sense. I know how to make bullets, I mean the data.

Was is generated with a script or did you copy and paste individual part stats from their website specs or some other way?

I have a few ways to generate info, like with inxi or searching pcpartpicker, but there often there is not enough info, important info that is missing, far too much info about stuff I don’t care about or I have to spend a lot of time searching for specific data and have to copy and paste each feature for each part individually which can be too time consuming.

What you have shows pretty much exactly what I would like, so I could easily share when needed.

I say let them stay blissfully ignorant. They have the right to that choice. It’s the above average people that matter. The ones still capable of critically thinking, that do not rely on ‘one-line zingers’ (i.e. 69, nice; that’s what she said; and my axe; etc) and inside jokes for dopamine hits. Quality > quantity.

1. don’t lose steam, use steam.

videogames are a critical part of life for many people. find ways to integrate with, interact with or somehow involve steam. like literal steam it is pervasive, rising and hot espite being as old as time itself. look at gaben. some joke that he is a god. ignore that silly crap and look at the decisions he makes for the company. he rarely makes bad moves.

2. nay. aye.

ai is being forced violently down everyone’s throats. i didn’t sign up for this internet snuff film. it’s all over the news. websites have removed assistant popups offering help. gppt, guinea pig potty training.

3. make time for time.

not the magazine, put down that spice. nothing needs to be spiced up. milhouse is not a meme. the streisand effect is temporary and ultimately works. let it grow naturally, if you force it, the masses will reject it, shit all over it then leave it for dead.

4. an enema of my enemy is an anemone

people need a place to go. you have a place. people don’t like change. they move when their home dies. when it turns to shit. your enemy, whether by design or not, is reddit. reddit grew as digg died. let reddit die. a sea of people will steadily migrate over unless you supershittify faster and harder than them. look at a-a-ron’s [rip] early work with reddit and markup. keep. it. simple. keep it tight. don’t make it look like a sea cucumber with all the extra shit twiddling off.

5. porn.

remember deviantart? remember tummbler? remember imgur? what do they have in common? they all got rid of porn. their slow decline began at that moment every time. porn is hard (i don’t mean like that), once a site’s ability to share porn goes down (not like that) it’s really hard (not like that) to get it back up (not like that). there are plenty of obvious risks. csam. trafficking. too much or too little goatse (it’s not that little baby, please).

in short, time (3) for hot (5), steamy (1) humans (2) giving enemas to sea anemone (4). or something like that (6-9)

EDIT: I notice that one of my words was redacted. I think that is an example of the slippery slope that is part of shittification. I understand why it was removed. Very well actually, despite my developmental disorder. That’s right, I am developmentally removed. It probably will automatically redact the word again in my previous sentence. I get it, the word itself has shifted in meaning due to it being used in a derogatory manner excessively.

I am not trying to provoke any specific reaction by mentioning it and reusing it. I do not want to offend anyone with the word or any words.

Same as certain other words, while offensive to some, to the point of it needing redacted, others whom the word is used offensively towards, may some day choose to take it on as a title proudly. The meaning of words can shift and changes over time. I recall a time when the word “queer” was bad. I wonder if that will be redacted here too. People got in trouble for saying it when I was younger, regardless of their intent. It had the same weight of offensiveness as fuck, shit, piss and damn. It shifted again though and now is part of the LGBTQ+ abbreviation and to my knowledge, is not considered offensive anymore, unless used specifically as such.

The part that concerns me however, is the automatic redaction. That sort of automation is potentially a weapon that can be abused. It is blacklisting speech without regard to intent. No, I don’t want people spammming racial epithets or derogatory language constantly, something I’ve had the displeasure of handling in the past, elsewhere, as a moderator in a group videochatting website and in subreddits i modded (including the infamous spacedicks).

I believe that any kind of censorship like that should be handled on a case by case basis. Automatically doing it will alienate people, some who are unaware of the indecency of the word and some using it as it was initially intended, all to stop the bad actors hoping to gain a reaction. Automatic removal is caving and letting the bad actors win. It is letting them dictate which words can be used and which are to be removed. What happens when the word “holocaust” becomes a slur? What happens when it is decided that the word “removed” becomes offensive?

I’m not asking for any changes, I just felt the need to make my case and point, as I have done numerous times on many platforms. I want to issue this warning, that censorship and especially automatic censorship, is very rarely the right way to do things. I understand why. I also know it creates a sort of ethical debt that stifles the wrong people eventually, while the bad actors move on to their next target. So it goes…

I keep folders of bookmarks and then right click > open all in tabs depending on what i’m doing.

i like to start with by opening a bunch of tabs depending on my task, then close them as i progress. if i need to stop with many tabs still open, like with topics being researched for projects, i’ll save all tabs to a temp folder to resume later. about once a month i clean the temp folder and sort things i want to save in various categorical folders.

the categories are divided in a hierarchal manner of my own design, which is arbitrary and fluctuates constantly. my last count showed i was just a few shy of 2,000 bookmarks. it’s current state is like this:

myshit

-my emails

-my websites (created by me)

-mine (sites with content about me but not made by me, like interviews)

-my cloud storage

-friends sites

-job search

-gov shit

-banking

-adult

-hookers (dating sites and local shopping like craigslist)

tools

-testing

-networking

-conversions

-freeshit

-search engines

-info (things like cheat sheets, connector and componant ID’s, thesaurus, etc)

maps (i like maps)

-weather

-geology

-contamination

-space

-water

-animals

-electronic

-human stuff

-other

all this shit

-ai

-art

-audio

-auto (need to remove as my car died and i can’t afford a new one)

-business

-compsci

-d&d

-electronics

-emoji/symbols

-gaming

-graphing

-hardware

-homebuying

-language

-linuxcetera (has several nested categories)

-nature

-neat people

-neat websites

-programming

-psychology

-radio (amateur)

-virtualization

temp

-todo

-sort me

-dated folders of project related tabs

This was my first thought as well. The code doesn’t even have to be very secretive to beat most people from figuring it out. Torture would be the only way and it still would have plausible deniability.

So eventually no decipherable, nor understandable decryption easily succeeds. (The previous sentence has a secret message.)

I believe in myself. I believe in everyone else too, until they give me a reason not to.

I believe every particle/atom/point within my reality has a connection equivalent to what one might call a ‘soul’ and it exists outside of dimensional reality, the dimensions being represented by a line (1d), a plane (2d), a field (3d) and the function of time (4d). Currently for me this puts these connections in the 5th dimension. I use the term “philote” as a label for each connection. That term is borrowed from the Ender books.

Life as we know it is made up of many atoms, formed into molecules, cells, organs and so on. At the core, each atom having its own connected philote, an organism is a community of philotes working together to stay connected and keep the organism going. The organism they represent is in a way, their religion. I believe in the philotes representing my human body. They believe in me.

When I die, my atoms with scatter. Some philotes will be swept away in the atmosphere, some will become the rotting and disintegrating organs of my body. Unless I’m cremated or destroyed in some other way similar, some parts of my body will remain connected. The philotes that make up my bones will remain connected to each other, as the philotes of my skin and blood etc. spread and become new things.

If I meet someone and have an affinity to them, I believe that some of my philotes and some of their philotes were once part of the same organism. They belonged to the same philotic ‘church’ of that organism. They recognize each other. They like each other. Thus I like the other person and they like me, even if we can’t explain why ourselves. It is like magnetism, our philotes know each other and know they have similar goals and will work together. Since philotes exist outside of time, this affinity may be caused by something which has not occurred yet. Perhaps the other person and I die and many of our philotes become a new entity sometime in the future. A new church or religion of philotes.

If I meet someone and do not like them and cannot explain why, I believe that my philotes and their philotes are of opposing goals. Their philotic church does not agree with my philotic church. The philotes are repelled from each other, like how a magnet will repel. We go our separate ways. Perhaps their philotes were once part of an organism and my philotes were once part of the blade which killed their organism. Perhaps one day some of my philotes are part of an organism that is consumed by their organism. Some philotic clusters do not like an event. They accept it but will repel future or past encounters with philotes of the opposing mass. They do not believe in them. Their church is not the same. They do not like the outcome. There could be many reasons. Your beliefs still exist within my beliefs, even if yours do not include mine.

The big bang. The heat death of the universe. The big suck. No, the big suck is not referring to an adult video or a powerful vacuum or my ex. It’s the opposite of the expansion of the universe. The big bang exploded. It spreads all atoms out. An atom and its philote no longer want to spread out. They want to return. They flip. They become dark matter or dark energy. They change direction in the 4th dimension. They contract instead of expanding. Other philotes agree and flip. Eventually, the universe stops expanding and contracts. The philotes reunite. They become a singularity. All existance in one point. That is too much for one point. It explodes. The big bang happens again. This never ends. This is happening an infinite number of times right now. Dark matter and dark energy are not measurable because they do not exist anymore at that point in time. From the perspective of a flipped philote, our existance is the dark matter. The flipping happens in all directions in 4 dimensions. It can be backwards on a line, diagonally on a plane, it can loop in a field and go sideways in time.

The big bang, the heat death of the universe and the big suck I represent like this: ∞=|¿√∞²?|=∞ Reality is equal to the question of the absolute value of the square root of infinity squared. A pointless math formula. A story that unfolds and returns.

Sounds like everything you try doing to de-escalate things backfires. Consider reversing course and escalate hard. Play pornographic videos loudly (if you know their sexuality, play videos that are not), throw shit around, move furniture as a daily workout, let out orgasmic screams at random, re-enact choice scenes from Stomp! and drown out their retaliatory noises until you are unable to hear them anymore.

If the landlord tries to say anything, play it innocent, do not let on that this is vengeance, say it’s just a misunderstanding or that you didn’t realize how loud it was. They wanna say it’s all you, make it all you and then some. Fight fire with fire. Make them fear you. Make the landlord break the lease if you have one.

The other options is to grey rock them but that’s a lot less fun. https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/grey-rock#uses

I’m not a professional anything. This is probably horrible advice. Talking to a lawyer might be the better option. Moving might be the best option.

I’ve walked 175 miles in the past 4 weeks and pick up trash while doing it :)

yeah, true. mental illness accounts for more most likely.

having outside eyes on me is an interesting thought. i have a caring support network that i talk to regularly, family members and a psychologist, to help keep me rooted on earth most of the time, if that’s what you meant by the question. the question could also be interpreted as being monitored or surveilled, like by police or the like, which insofar as i know, no more than the average citizen, no less.

my hyperbole can be too hyperbole. the term adynaton comes to mind. idk if it’s from bipolar or adhd, like mania or hyperfocusing, or maybe artificial colors and lead paint or simply part of my personality or genetics. sometimes the imagination runs free, albeit disjointed at times.

The plan is to keep the people dumb, in debt, in jail, in fear and/or under their control. there’s the idea of accelerationism, where to force change, instead of doing things like lowering national debt or slowing climate change, to do whatever it takes to increase them or speed them up, make them worse and let the survivors figure it out. With the jails packed and turned into debtors prisons, utilizing the prison population as cheap labor and a legal form of slavery, they think they can create an industrial revolution. there’s also a scientific revolution they hope to bring about, detailed here later.

When I say ‘they’ i’m referring to the US’s current administration of MAGt’s and muskrats, who also are in a triumvirate of power with vanilla pudding (the ruler of ru) and xj (if you gotta ask, you can’t afford it AKA the ruler of ch). they are the scamchurian candidates, the fronts of the real controllers, the ~2700 billionaires that are known about and a few other hundred that are probably hiding away somewhere. the goal is to end with control over the remaining 99.999999999% of the population by using about 2% to subjugate the rest and force change which will kill off 75% of the people (leaving a PROJECTed 25 percent left), which might slow global warming and the destruction of life on earth just long enough for the remaining scientist slaves to create a base on mars or underwater or in another dimension or whatever, where the 0.0000000001% will live, supplied by the space elevator or portal tech or whatever gets invented to allow them to continue their lavish lives at the cost of billions of others.

so what does this tinfoil hat rant have to do with student loan debt beyond keeping people dumb?

i have a theory using a metaphor based on Newton’s laws. they believe they are the unbalanced force in the first law, creating a change, disrupting the object in motion which is humanity and its future. they want to be, or believe they are, the result of the first law as shown by the application of the second law: the combination of mass and acceleration. they are the mass. they believe they are accelerating things. while the third law, every action has an opposite but equal reaction, is their methodology. by strengthening their hold over a large amount of educated people through debt and eliminating the department of education, it will suppress scientific progress and contain it, hoping to force a powerful reaction as the pressure builds and eventually boils out or explodes, resulting in some major scientific breakthrough that will save the day which they will take credit for. except it wont happen and instead there will be decades of unnecessary suffering as their plans fail miserably and all the bad things in the world continue to grow unchecked.

treat all that the talking heads say, as not just lies but the exact opposite of the truth and the plan is revealed. when they make accusations, that’s what they are planning to do. when they claim something they are doing will help people or industry or whatever, it will hurt it severely. destroy the dollar and other major currencies to force a switch to a cryptocurrency they control. censor information and remove freedom of speech. murder, arrest or deport anyone who dissents too loudly. epsteins island was nothing, instead of a pedophile island they will create a pedophile nation.

yeah, i know, this is all more than just a bit of a crazed rant. i can’t say i believe all this 100%. i don’t think it is all too far from the truth either. i wish i had the means to do something to stop it beyond ranting like a madman online. at least my student loans were forgiven. total and permanent disability did that. hooray. i’m debt free. now i can enjoy all that life has to offer… i had way too much coffee today.

The term for combining their computational power is “concurrent computing”, “parallel computing” or “distributed computing” which aren’t really all exactly the same but i can’t find distinctions betwen them that are well defined. making them all accesible in one place is something i want to do as well but i get distracted easily and haven’t made much progress.

KVM is an abbreviation that means ‘keyboard video mouse’ which also might be something to look into but it can be confusing as it also is an abbreviation for ‘kernel virtual machine’ which also might be related but that’s as far as i got mostly.

i believe you can create a local network if you have a router/hub/switch device with multiple ethernet ports. if all the devices have wifi you should be able to connect through that, using something like jellyfin or maybe proxmox. wish i knew more and could help, hopefully you get better advice because i want to do the same or something similar.

pet solutions

I’ve never heard this term before. My searches online aren’t bringing up anything useful, it’s all stuff about literal pets. I can’t seem to wrap my mind around what it could mean or the right thing to search to find the answer. Could someone explain please?

The ADHD aspect of computer related stuff is something I wish more people understood, Linux and beyond. I have about 45 seconds before I get distracted, that’s if I’m lucky and my phone doesn’t go off or a neighbors dog starts barking or I hear strong wind and decide to check the weather or I suddenly remember I need to mop the floor of my bathroom and a near infinite set of other possibilities. If I need to spend 15 minutes reading man pages about what arguments actually do or searching online for it and getting a short list of links dating anywhere from 2 to 20 years ago or a forum post with a dozen pages of comments then I… I… shit. What was I doing?