Narri N. (they/them)

I have a trauma-based personality disorder, which sometimes manifests itself in episodes of often uncontrollable bouts of verbal violence. I prefer to direct this to people on the internet (as opposed to actual people), as I don’t wish to be violent towards people I actually care about.

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  • Hey I get you. The great northern birdsnest I still call home has taught me since childhood that everything coming out of Russia has been, is and always will be bad. Just your standard rascism, “ryssä on ryssä vaikka voissa paistais” type of shit you know? “We weren’t actually nazis despite what we did with who in the war” and other collected denialisms on top of that. Unlearning the capitalist indoctrination is difficult, but I have learned to lend my critical support for the Russian state in the fight against western imperialist hegemony as my understanding of the world increases.






  • Yeah, I’m pretty sure there’s information around again once shit hits the fan. But for now it seems to be working.

    And also yeah. Our setup worked out of the box with both KB&M and my partner’s TV’s remote (a Samsung smart-tv of some kind if it matters), though the LineageOS i installed might’ve had some settings of its own regarding remotes that are vital; i kinda went by the vibes of what could be set and set those before verifying if the remote worked initially. But it was working before I changed the OS so it might “just work”.


  • Because it’s often real fucking scary? My every past (often futile and misguided) attempt at forming a (stricly monogamous cishet) relationship ended for one reason (me) or another (the other half). I have been hurt by myself and others, by my own feelings or the other’s or the lack thereof from either. Now I live together with an incredible woman who gets me and I get her and our futures have so far seemed well aligned and stuff and I never have to fear to be judged or ridiculed by her unlike in previous attemps and I know she trusts me (and I trust her when she says so) as well. And yet still I find myself fearing: what if she’ll just stop loving me because of xyz? Because everyone else has left so far (sure I might have personally driven away a few because of my fears and insecurities, and maladaptations or other toxicities, but I’ve grown from those times emotionally). It’s real scary to open your shell and be at your most vunerable, but it is also required. Not everyone can be expected at any point to be able to do it just like that.

    That’s my two cents.


  • No. I decided to go with StremioOS which didn’t work (like many others online had noticed also), but digging deeper it turned out to just be a custom LineageOS AndroidTV setup. So I downloaded that dev’s fork of it and installed it on to the RBPi SSD, and then installed the Stremio APK for AndroidTV on that and got it to work that way. These are the hoops I mentioned. This was good actually, because then I could just install a SmartTube APK on the same OS and got that sweet adblock and SponsorBlock action on Youtube that I had hoped for in the beginning. Also learned to use SSH which was way less complicated on (W)LAN than I had initially assumed. Now I guess we’re just waiting for Google to complete the death knell of Android, at which point I’ll have to find another way of setting up this service for us. But as it stands we should manage. Again, thank you. You specifically, and those few other folks who replied to my incoherent question straight away.








  • well yeah, the argument kinda falls apart when you apply it to yourself. in any case referring to ideologies in order to not have to apologize when you’ve screamed at a fellow worker seems kinda weird to me, because i’ve never really thought “all managers are enemies” or whatever, seems really needlessly extreme and shortsighted to direct your animosity towards this person in particular. just go apologize and go on with your life.


  • Narri N. (they/them)@lemmy.mltoNo Stupid Questions@lemmy.worlddel
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    the capitalists are the enemy not other workers. an easy way of distinguishing capitalists at a workplace and within said workplace’s hierarchy is asking a question: “would the workplace function were they not to come to work one day?” and if the answer is no, then they aren’t a capitalist. based on this text i’d say you probably should strive to clear the air between the two of you, if for nothing else than to make working there less shitty for screaming at a nice lady who just works there.





  • i also haven’t heard that name before, but this seems to be along the same lines that we were taught in dialectical behavior therapy within interpersonal relationship skills. one great use for this skill for people with difficulities in emotional self-regulation (usual in trauma-based disorders i believe, i was stamped with bpd myself) is to learn to detach emotions from whatever it is that you need to talk about, as to minimize the possibility of an overwhelming emotional state. i personally used to go completely delusional very easily in enough emotional stress, so much so that reality that everyone else could see didn’t really matter to me because i saw a different reality that i knew completely and utterly to be true. this tendency has lead to many moments of distress to myself personally and many more around the world, and this skill is one of the reasons i don’t suffer as much anymore.

    which is why it’s so sad to see such rampant ableism in the comments. people completely misunderstanding the entire concept (because of it’s sucky name) and then just completely shitting on apparently everyone, someone there decided to bring up their general bigotry towards sexual minorities there or something.

    anyway, nothing to do with the question really, just some personal musings