Those that have entered into the shadow contract. A shadow contract is one of few mechanisms to enter large-scale consensus (it isn’t THAT large when compared to a solar or galactic scale, but large enough for planetary control, and with some clever management, can scale larger).

Consensus requires untrusted sovereigns agreeing to collective action. It is a very difficult mechanism to operate. One way is by having a crime so heinous, the mass population block would eviscerate you if it came to light.

Pedophilia is king among these shadow cornerstones. It illustrates a total lack of empathy, no protective nature towards the innocent, no concern for the perceptions of society, high intellect / manipulation abilities, and a willingness to do anything. You can say it is the “panther” among the shadows.

So most leadership is among that tribe, which is why they are the way they are. It is only logical.

There are other tribes as well. Use your imagination and the answers will follow.

Funny thing, Reddit did that “circle” event many years ago. How big did anyone’s circle get? That is an example of what I am explaining. It is nearly game theoretically impossible to have large scale consensus without some mechanism to make sure people are on the same page.

These assholes are all pedophiles and they use it to control the planet. To get to high levels of government, you must enter the shadow contract of pedophilia. It is easy to control people and trust people with that kind of shadow on them, so it is required.

Then they turn around and use pedophilia to control everyone else. Any tech that threatens their power, they can immediately shutdown by pedo-bombing it. The counter to pedobombing is authoritarian moderation. Once you have that, it is over. The government they control now can control the mods, and that means they control the narrative. THAT is one of the core enemies to fight. An alternative to Reddit or any other system is not enough.

Because pedophilia is such a taboo / social death sentence, it is among the most powerful shadow contracts.

The choice to exist or not is our final freedom, regardless of what anyone else says or the social pressures. I am happy for you that you are exercising your choice. Life is extremely hurtful on many levels. It may be relatively predictable, but it is hurtful, and leaving it would be preferred.

I’d want to return to a void of nothingness. No time, no feeling, no existence. My life is, interestingly, a pursuit of that quiet. Unfortunately I have concluded physical death is not the mechanism to achieve non-existence in my case, but I respect other’s autonomy to try.

Before I decided to off myself, I realized I was liberated from all social norms. I decided to use my first drug because of this liberation, DMT. DMT behaves very strangely when you are ready to stop existing. I don’t think you should change your mind actually, I agree with your decision. But if you are really going through with it, do yourself a favor and do a mega-dose of DMT. It is the closest experience or simulator to dying. May as well try death before dying.

You want someone to listen to your pains, I can do that, but you need to read this novel first. I am sure someone else here can listen to you without conditions. Since I have already lived what you are going through, I figure I have some insight to share and will do that instead.

Given how short life is, and how long non-life is, I concluded during these relative-stable reality times, it is more beneficial to pursue true death in “life” by living maximally.

If I remove my material body, the energy may spontaneously arise in a new body, or it may divide into significantly more agonizing or unconscious energy forms. An ant hive being consumed by cordyceps parasites? It could. A thousand flies desperately trying to find food before their clocks runs out? Sure. A reality where no joys exist at all, only hunger, only longing? …why not? These things all exist here already, so it isn’t far fetched.

Trading the predictability of a human vessel for the chaos of infinite realities is not what I consider a good idea, and since I’ve had hundreds of journeys with DMT and hundreds more with secondary “death-like” verifiers, in my own case, and my own evidence, I can conclusively say none of us can die.

Have you tried ayahuasca? Try it before you go. You can do anything now, your decision is made, so do anything.

We can exit the current material reality sphere of others, which can be satisfying in an ego-driven sort of way, but ultimately it may be a futile pursuit, because there are countless realities, and countless versions of each of us, and countless modalities of existence.

You see…dying is not what any one of us thinks it is. I want non-existence. It takes significantly more technology to achieve this than “ending life.” The irony is, in the pursuit of not existing, existence opens up.

So I end myself regularly now. I can ghost anyone I wish, and start over elsewhere. I can quit any job (and have). I can end or start any relationship. I can grab a bag with minimal supplies and sleep on a hammock anywhere in the world. I’ve cooked BBQ bacon burgers among bears and buffalo. What will they do, eat me? Good.

I had a run-in with a moose during rut season but he decided to run circles around my camp instead of stomping on me. Darn.

I’ve made friends with people most would run in fear of. Turns out that even the scariest people can have a beautiful heart.

I’ve done mega-doses of acid and walked out into remote canyons, and driven 100mph in the middle of Wyoming, Montana, the Dakotas during snowstorms and icy roads where no one else is dumb enough to go. I’ve gone straight into hurricanes and tornadoes. I’ve regularly driven onto remote ocean beaches and had a cookout. Don’t do that in Louisiana, they have mosquitoes even on beaches and they’re hungry. I wouldn’t want to be a mosquito that’s a horrible life.

You know, I ended up going to every state in the US this way, before going to other countries. When you are ready to stop existing, why not? Who cares about borders? Who cares about laws? These are all invented by beings who want to live in a singular material reality. That’s kind of sad in a way.

We don’t. We want to end our existence here. I want to return to a true nothingness. The desire automatically unlocks multidimensionality.

I don’t think I am anyone special. The opposite really. I want to be no one. I want to end my existing. In the pursuit of that, you can have some fun.

That that is my advice to you, that you didn’t ask for: since you are slated to end, end all ties to your current life here first. You can ghost anyone you want. You can quit any job. You can sell any possessions. You can throw away anything. You can go anywhere and try anything.

Here is a basic framework I organically discovered in my own process that might save some time:

1. try anything that has a chance to raise your consciousness. More consciousness = more control = better chance of achieving actual end state. Don’t bother with alcohol, heroin, or anything the removes your sovereignty.

2. freedom is king. Maximize personal freedom. Since you are slated to end yourself, you always have your exit hatch. Cut off people that drain you. Draining can be physical, emotional, intellectual, etc. Do not let people in who have a chance of doing this. If you find yourself thinking about someone else too much, and you are left in confusion, this is a clear sign. People that are good for you are generally transparent.

3. freedom at the cost of others is a trap. If you hurt others it will eventually come back and eat away at you. It also lessens the chance of a safe landing after material reality death. The logic in this is simple. If you’re a dick, why would higher dimensionality entities want to hang out with you? I mean I wouldn’t want to, I’d just let you connect with things that can match your dick energy.

4. you will find through a pursuit of death the underlying truth behind many things in reality. Many humans have already walked this in the past, you’ll get eyeballs to see their impact. Trust your instincts and operate without regrets.

5. i’m bored so this is where my message ends. If you end up axing this iteration of yourself, if you happen to wake up as an energy form trapped in this reality, come hang out with me in a dream or something. I can guarantee you we’ll have a better time than you’ve apparently had so far. At the very least I’d have a massive bonfire in your honor and burn sage or some shit, it smells good. Feel free to message me. Also, anyone else who is on the fence about dying, feel free to send me a message. Good luck!