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I’m choosing to believe that the second pic is just how that realtor stages their places.

I wonder if she would have changed her name if her dad hadn’t been famous with that name. Or if by the time you can legally change it, you’re inured to people’s reaction.

It’s generally implemented in a way that takes away fun. If a game had fun fights that were always intended to be strategic, it’d be ok, but when you have to kill identical mob after identical mob to progress in the plot, i don’t see the point.

i remember getting bored and annoyed near the end of oblivion.

Mario looks so depressed in that first screenshot for some reason

Definitely change the medication. There are still a ton left to try. I’d also recommended picking up a non doomscrolling hobby. It doesn’t need to be social. Something that moves your hands. Sewing, painting, writing, music (playing it or listening to it), clay crafting, knitting, learning dances, playing videogames - the goal isn’t to fix everything. It’s to figure out a calming ritual that also give you a sense of accomplishment.

Learn tricks like concentrating on your breathing to reduce panic. Breathe in for ten, hold for ten, release for ten. It can trick your body into thinking fear time is over. If your parents are unhelpful, there are books about managing anxiety and depression at the library. Learning methods from those can be a stopgap until meds help or you can see a shrink. I read some when I didn’t have health insurance. Doing meditation with youtube guides can help, but there are some mental illnesses where it makes things worse. Give it a shot in the morning a few times, see if you get anything out of it. I used to do like 3 min sessions.

Try to find things that you want to be around for more of. An album, the next book in a series - positive things are best, but “i refuse to go before (hated elderly celebrity or whoever)” is fine, in the way that nicotine is awful for you but if it keeps you going until you find useful meds, it serves a purpose.

I’m not sure how to help with social anxiety. I still suffer from it, but it went from life devestating to occassionally a problem. It’s tough because fears get better with careful, slow exposure, and most humans aren’t predictable enough to do the “look at a picture of a bee until you feel nothing then move on” type thing without guidance. If it’s any comfort, many people leave high school with drastically different levels of social skill. I’ve heard lots of LGBT people, ace people, people with overprotective parents, disability, mental illness, homeschooled kids - they’ve all spoken about how they felt like they didn’t learn how to interact and be an adult until they were older. Lots of them figured it out in their 20s and up and ended up happy and around people they care about.

Just, take your time with things.