Crying, sniffling, more crying, over eating, crying some more, and existential dread. Then I go to work and pretend it will just magical go away, become delusional, go home, and start the process all over again.

I might need therapy.

Anything that you think you have an interest in. If you think you would like to try building houses, decks, buildings, and do on, then give that a try. If you want to run large machines to move dirt, dig holes, lift materials/objects try the operating engineers, if you want to work with cooling and heating systems, go for HVAC, try welding if you want to work with metal, and so on

Maybe try a trade. If I could go back in time, I would have never gotten into computers as a career. I would have gone for welding or plumbing. If you can find a union, you can become an apprentice, get training, work as you learn, earn income as well, and as soon as you are allowed, go for your journeyman test which opens up more jobs and higher pay. By the way, a union is only as good as the people that make it up. So if the local sucks, it is because of the people there not truly caring about their brothers and sisters. I was union in constriction (IUOE) but had to go back to computers after I had some major life problems occur. Wish I could go back.

Bridgefy?