Let it all out. Be a storm

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      I feel this deep in my bones. Lately I’m watching conditions deteriorate all around me and wondering what rock bottom is going to look like. We’re heading there fast and no one with any power to slow the descent gives a single fuck. It’s depressing as hell.

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        I do too. It just feels like that a bunch psychopaths hold a lot of power that is keeping us from progressing.

        All that money, hoarded like dragons, seen as a high score to beat …

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          Should be lined up. Might be more environmental care if the heads of giant corps were made to clean up their company pollution with their own money.

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      It was great for a while, lifted billions out of poverty, gave us cures to diseases, air conditioning, internet, etc. But I definitely feel like we need to rethink it now. We need to protect the institutions that allow for innovation, entrepreneurialism, and capitalism, yes, because innovation is essential. But we also need to figure out how to help the tens of millions of people capitalism is leaving in the dust. Idk how to do that though.

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    I’m a skilled fuckin mason. But I’ve put my notice in so I’m being given all the shit jobs on my last week. The past three days I’ve been descaling parts of the wall. What’s descaling you ask? Going over the entire wall with a hand brush and a wire brush, knocking off all the loose bits. Meanwhile their star mason is installing stones with ledges so big you could hang a fuckin coffee cup off em, and totally missing mortar on entire stones. Literally just plop em on the wall and keep going. Fuck this place, and fuck Bob specifically.

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      Shitty for them to do that to you. Would it impact your next job or your wallet so much that you can’t just tell them to fuck off and just walk away?

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        Next job no, wallet yes. And it’s just to the end of the week and I can tell me to shove their heads up each others asses

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      Man Bob sounds like a real piece of work. Good for you, I hope you find a place that can utilize and appreciate (in the form of payment) your talents and commitment to quality of work. Best of luck internet stranger!!

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    I’m at a crossroads in life where I need to start making large and impactful decisions about my future. It’s a very lonely place to be.

    Will my long term relationship last? Do I want it to? Will I try to stay in this (IRL) community? Do I want to? Will I stay in this career path? Can I afford not to?

    Etc.

    Usually I’d talk to my partner about all this, but because our relationship is also part of my issues, I feel like I can’t. So as a result… I’m feeling lonely and overwhelmed.

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    I’ve completely given up on finding someone to spend my life with. I’m 27m and I have nothing to offer outside of love. Every girl I’m even slightly attracted to already has a boyfriend. I’m not unattractive but I have resting bitch face and I’m intimidating. I’ve lived my whole life with people being afraid of me which fuels my need for companionship. I know I’m not owed anything from anyone but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t still hurt.

    Anymore I’ve just accepted that I’m going to die alone because I’m only going to be wanted for what I can provide when I just want to be fucking loved. My own family doesn’t even love me. All they can talk about is how I’m not good enough or I’m not applying myself correctly.

    I hate being a man…

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    I have to take care of a 3 year old with pink eye giving her antibiotic eye drops 4 times a day for a week. It’s like wrangling a greased screaming pig. She doesn’t sleep though the night from the coughing, so i dont sleep through the night. I’m all alone while my spouse is on a work trip for 2 weeks, so he gets to miss out on all of this start to finish! No daycare or taekwondo so I can get a break! No family or support! All me all alone with a shit eyed toddler and no sleep for 2 weeks straight. That’s on top of all the other agonizing responsibilities haunting me every day. I’m so tired, 10 days left…

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    My manager is in meetings all the time but has a big ego so they have had no time to view my work but they ABSOLUTELY insist that they know exactly what I’ve done and that it needs to be better.

    Bitch all the things he’s complaining about I’ve already done but it’s impossible to get a word in.

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    I am so angry. I am so sick and tired of just stating my experiences as a woman and having people who are not women straight up tell me that I’m wrong. About my own life experiences. It’s fucking exhausting to be surrounded on all sides by bad faith actors, knowing full well that you won’t get through to them, and feeling defeated, like the world is going backwards and you can feel your rights being torn away from you bit by bit, trying desperately to stand up for yourself and having any words you say fall on deaf ears. I’m so sick of not being listened to. I’m so sick of not being believed. I am so fucking sick of not being respected. I just want to be treated like a human and not be criticised for literally just fucking existing.

    I’m so done.

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      I’m not a woman, but I am a minority living in a racist part of the USA, and I kinda know what you’re talking about. It’s really hard. I sometimes feel crazy because people don’t believe me.

      I constantly have to play this game of, “are they being rude, do they not like me, or are they being racist?” I feel gaslighted all the time. I feel lesser and it’s tiring having to be who I am. Even people who think they are being kind are assholes. Telling me that I’m “not like the others” is such an insult to my people. “The others” are my friends and family. They are not “others” they are people to me.

      I am sorry you are going through this. Your voice matters and is valid

      Edit: Sorry for attaching my venting to yours. Pretty selfish of me now looking back

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        Oh gosh I cant even imagine dealing with all the racist little micro aggressions you have to deal with every day. Also don’t feel bad for venting, you were just trying to relate, and I’m autistic so I relate in a very similar way. I feel for you too and I’m glad someone understands. ❤

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      I’m sorry you have to deal with that. I hate dealing with people enough as a man. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be to deal with all the bullshit you are stuck with, having your opinions and experiences dismissed, etc. I hope things improve for you (and all women), but it looks like it’ll get worse before it (hopefully) gets better.

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        I really appreciate your comment more than you know. Just having a guy read what I wrote there and not only recognize it, but believe it and validate it means so, so much.

        I’m lucky in that I have some close male friends probably a lot like you who are willing to listen and are actively improving themselves and I am so very thankful for that.

  • Karan5chaos@lemmy.ml
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    I wish my life wasn’t this complicated. Wife left me couple of years back on her own and now she won’t divorce me until I pay a heft amount to her. On top of stress and depression, I got diagnosed with multiple health problems including high cholesterol and diabetes. Life sucks for me at this point. I just wish all this gets over soon so I can focus on my health and career more.

  • ShellSurf@kbin.social
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    I hate feeling like I’m just a number to every business, person, or company. Every transaction feels like they just have to do the absolute bare minimum, and if they don’t even accomplish that, it doesn’t matter because I’m just a number.

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    I am absolutely exhausted with me and my kid’s ADHD. My wife is always upset at us because we can’t remember shit and I’ve spent my life feeling guilty because nobody will ever just give me a break.

    I’m expected to be “on” at all times and I just can’t do it forever. Sometimes I just need to do things my own, likely inefficient way, but at least at home it usually ends in being berated because I didn’t do it “the right way”.

    It’s so insanely demoralizing. I don’t even want to bother trying at anything because it will only be met with derision. What’s even the point. Fuck it all.

    Shit like that is why I still dream of disappearing forever to be alone and just left to my own devices.

    Thanks for letting me vent. Just so tired.

  • saplyng@kbin.social
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    I watched my grandfather die last night after months of him battling ALS. I’ve already accepted his death years ago and I know he’s at peace now so it’s okay.

    But the fact I can’t explain to my dog that she should stop looking for him and waiting for him to walk through the door tears me up inside.

  • User Deleted@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    Well you see I just found the fediverse and everything seemed fine, then you get issues with the front page not updating, and deleted comments don’t federate and user display names and profile descriptions doesn’t update and um… its just annoying. Not anyone’s fault, developing code is hard, I know, but this is a post about venting so…

    And real life is just not something I’d even wanna begin talking about, it’d would be 5 more paragraphs of stuff no one wants to read.